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I hope ur all good and all set for another post by me. This post is mostly to my relatives but also to a couple of old and new friends, I won't mention any names so u don't really have 2 worry bout' it.

It all happened January 13th, the day you took your life because of dope. I still want to slap you and I don't really think I've realized the whole situation yet... Although I've got some awesome friends/relatives who's been supporting me, A LOT. A&A in US used to surf in his group and yes I think ya'll know who I'm talking about, Jack. A&A are so sad and they both had to cancel school for a week. He lived nearby 'em, San Clemente I guess. Spoke to an old friend yesterday and MAN I needed it! She's going to study, senior year at high school, I'M SOOO COMING TO HER GRADUATION AND PROM! Did I mention how jealous I am? When I look back at my life I can proudly say that I'm proud of what I've done and who I've become. Thanx to all of my old and new friends for always being there for me. Most people now how naive, childish, mature, immature, mischievous, unhappy and hyperactive I can be and thank you guys 4 bearing out with me! My cousins are like my sisters I love them till death, it's the same thing with some friends of mine. If u called me in 4 am and said that u needed me I'd be there as fast as I could! That's just who I am, I'm rased that way and I've been through a lot. I respect you and actually even love some of you, sisterly love and love of a banding friendship that I hope will never be broken or cut away. Right now I'm listening to Amos Lee - Speed of sound of loneliness which make me a little bit emotional hehe sorry guys. I really do love my motherland but also Italy and the USA, these are places where I belong, art thou with me? I guess no one really understands me sometimes and that's one thing that makes me sad, things I desperately want to share with loved people of mine but they don't seem to understand. Some day when I travel the world with them, I'll show them the beauty that regular tourists do not seem to see. My goals are set high, some day I wish to go to Harvard or some else College in America just to belong and to be happy, for real. Perhaps to find love as well, cause I miss it, I see pretty couples everywhere and sure I'm happy for them but it makes me unhappy at the same time. I don't talk about this often enough but I really miss my grandfather his death is still following me, even though it was 7 years since he passed away. We were really close, no one will ever understand but I hope with this text that you understand me a little bit more than before, I love you so much, what would I do without you? Keep on rockin' in the free world ♥